i miss pt. 1

i miss getting to watch you sleep, 
i miss smelling the sweat upon your scalp, 
i miss feeling your flesh between my teeth, 
i miss the way you spark the tree, 
i miss the way we used to have daily conversations over coffee and tea. 

i miss getting to watch you wake,
i miss feeling your breath upon my neck,  
i miss planting my lips across your face, 
i miss the way you spark a jay, 
i miss being the only one to hear you say i love you for your awkward ways. 

i miss thinking i have a chance, 
i miss having your scent upon my face, 
i miss getting yourself up out them pants, 
i miss the way you had my back, 
i miss that day i got out of jail and i seent your face up in that fucking van. 

i miss wanting to be your life, 
i miss the ups and downs were bound to have, 
i miss thinking one day youd be my wife, 
i miss having you by my side, 
i miss the boba tea and poetry that your beauty inspires me to write.

i miss getting to be your friend, 
i miss having my hands upon your throat, 
i miss forcing to let me breathe you in, 
i miss that moment we began, 
i miss the only person that ill ever miss this much or will miss again. 

i miss hearing you say my name, 
i miss having your heart inside my hand,  
i miss thinking i was probing your brain, 
i miss the way you made me change, 
i miss getting that random text message at 3am like i miss you babe.